♥~My 2 June's Babies~♥

As the title mentioned, the very 2 important persons in my life both turned 21st in the month of June...

Its ridiculous how Gemini and Virgo are always identified as the most undesirable pair among all horoscopes, yet i'm a Virgo while my hardcore best friend and boyfriend are both Gemini,haha...

I lost interest in horoscope reading since i met fluffy because no matter what i'm going to know about our zodiac compatibility, its not gonna be encouraging and pretty,haha...So i might as well believe we're gonna be that one of those unblessed couples that actually works out... :$

1stly, lets talk about fluffy's 21st birthday which fell on 3rd of June 2014, Tuesday

I personally think that 21st birthday is really huge and shouldn't be treated casually because its the milestone where you are legally classed as an adult...Hence, i tried my best to make fluffy's 21st birthday a memorable one...

Prepared two presents for him, one materialistic & another sensual....

A G-shock black gold for him & i bought myself a white-pink baby-g too,haha...Bytheway, i hate how he has a fairer skin than i do.. :$

As for the other present, i wanted to make him something sentimental, thus a birthday video with wishes from friends & families...Guess there's nothing more valuable than true blessings from your love ones...Fluffy i hope you love the present and most importantly appreciate your friends's and families's sincerity, of course don't you dare ignore my effort behind it... :p

Countdown his birthday with him...Sitting at the edge of his bed, waiting for the time to turn 12.00am..I was all ready to be the 1st to wish him happy birthday but his mom beat me,haha...Its ok, i'm happy to be the 2nd, mommy always goes 1st... :)

Right then, i showed him his birthday video while secretly waiting for his friends to come knock on his door & give him a surprise celebration...Our plan failed miserably though,haha...

My phone was on wifi & notifications from his-birthday-planning-group-chat keep popping up,haha...His suspicion began to rise & he asked for my phone...

"Who is that? Is it from my friends? What else are you guys hiding from me? Are they going to show up at my door step later? " him asking with a smirk face...

Just when i was panicked not knowing how to answer his question, he heard his bestie plus housemate, HanFong's phone's notifications popped up at the same time as mine did...Oppss, everything is busted...

To double confirm he was right, he purposely wanted to leave the room & go downstairs just for testing my reaction for it...Of course i stopped him right? What else could i do... :(

Then he quickly went to dress up himself, put on his favorite black polo-t & the watch i gave him, had his hair set & washed his face while i stood aside staring at him with a hopeless face on,haha...

The knock came just in time when he asked happily:" What's taking them so long ?"

Expecting a bunch of friends standing outside holding a kindling cake, he opened the door with a huge wide grin... Birthday song was then filled in the air as predicted,haha...

His friends all knew how unsuccessful our plan went the moment they saw how he didn't dress like he was at home,haha..sorry guys, i tried my best... :$

Was going to have dinner with him the next evening but he had to go for his final year project discussion, hence we delayed to the day after that which was Wednesday...

Had his belated birthday dinner at Indulgence, one of the famous restaurants in Ipoh...

Wanted to watch Maleficient afterward but all tickets were sold out...Paid a short visit to the Ipoh railway station, enjoyed the musical fountain, cherished every moment with him...

That's how fluffy's birthday came to an end...

Move on to Winqi's birthday... Its 19th June 2014, Thursday

Everyone knows how much she means to me, no need further introduction right? haha...

Didn't really have the time to prepare for her birthday as i was busy doing reports & also preparing for my MUET speaking test...Plus it really wasn't an easy task to even think of what to get her because i've been celebrating her birthday for 15 years,haha...I've given her every surprise and every present that i could come up with...Its a miracle that i still haven't exhausted my ideas for her birthday,haha...

As her die hard best friend, i know her from inside to outside then back to inside that she must be craving for a steamboat celebration...Haha, the fact is that i myself wanted steamboat as much as she did too... :$

Due to the lack of time to buy ingredients, we had steamboat at OIC cafe in Kampar new town...

Had a video call with Winnie who is working in Singaopore through skype...Miss that little darling so much... :(

For the first time in forever........i totally put aside my priority, mummum & fooled around with them like nobody's watching,haha...

Even though its nothing fancy, i hope you can feel our loves to you...Happy 21st birthday & congratulation for officially being 1 year older than me,haha... :p

Bytheway, some episodes happened and i felt irritation to the very core of me and its impossible to shake off...Anger came 1st, followed by sadness and disappointment...I've been a soft spoken person that i'm never mean to people even though sometimes i feel bullied and used...However, i guess every person has their limit to how much they can endure before they snap and fight back... 

For me, i can be really patient and not speak a word, hide all the dissatisfaction to myself, its a different story when it comes to my friends though...I simply cannot bear when someone is messing with my dear ones and finally i voiced out... Never regret a word i said because speaking the truth is never equals to attacking people...Fine... lets bygone be bygone, its not something that i would want to mention again bythway...

Enough with the birthdays, now i would like to save some time to talk about myself... :$

Erm...i've been upset for quite awhile...Need to get over my intense sadness but unfortunately i don't know if there's actually a way to do it...

Had a little quarrel with fluffy week ago...Well, its more like i quarreled and he did the soothing... :$

There's one day, i was supposed to meet him for lunch at 12pm...Who knows he wasn't at home & he came back only at around 3pm without any text or call to inform me about it...What made me angry the most was the reason behind it : DOTA...haha, girls' forever enemy...

Got frustrated and lectured him with tears falling from my face...Its funny how i always end up crying when i'm scolding out of anger...

Told him how i felt being left out by him, how he never care about me and everything...Then fluffy explained that everything wasn't like how i thought they were and how he cares me more than i thought etc...The fight lasted for a night & we're tuned back to the sweet mode the next morning...

I admit i'm never a person with high confidence...I feel insecure & inferior all the time, perhaps that's why i always thought i'm not worthy to him & how i'm never gonna be the 1st person he thinks of...Forgive me, you know girls are the most complex creatures in the world that you need to take a lot of patience to understand... :$ 

After that fight which brought up only by me,haha, i can see that he's been trying to spare me time as much as he can, trying not to make me angry or sad as possible as he can even though he still manages to make me grumpy almost every day,haha...I don't think there's anyone can surpass his level of triggering my temper... :$

Oppsss...i think i was out of topic since "had a little quarrel....." That's not what i wanted to tell in the 1st place...

Ok...Erm...i know sometimes its hard to acknowledge the good things that happen in your life when you convince yourself that its not gonna be good for you in the long run but i just couldn't help feeling negative...I thought optimism is always in my nature, wonder since when did pessimism take in its place...

Fluffy has been concerned about me that he would often asked me patiently :" What you're thinking? What is it that you haven't gotten over? Tell me..." I don't know what i will do & how i will be when you aren't there to expose my i-thought-its-well-hidden-sadness, sit by my side, listen to my never ending sad story, bring me to mummum for letting me feel better and give me the best comfort...Why do you have to make me so dependent on you...You know i'm gonna get used to not having those from you in a short while...

You're the only one who knows what's been bothering me & what's been making me feeling so emo...And i know you do read my my blog which is out of my expectation in a good way...If you read this, can you promise to have a twilight movie marathon with me before the day i dread the most come?