Cecilia's secretland

Cecilia's secretland

Saturday, August 25, 2012

♥~He Once Loved Me But Not Anymore~♥




Once upon a time, I believe it was a Tuesday when I caught your eye
And we caught onto something
I hold onto the night, you looked me in the eye and told me you loved me


Were you just kidding?
'cause it seems to me, this thing is breaking down
We almost never speak
I don't feel welcome anymore
Baby what happened, please tell me?

'cause one second it was perfect, now you're halfway out the doorAnd I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
Cause
I was there when YOU SAID FOREVER & ALWAYS


Was I out of line?
Did I say something way too honest, made you run and hide
Like a scared little boy
I looked into your eyes
Thought I knew you for a minute, now I'm not so sure


So here's everything coming down to nothing
Here's to silence that cuts me to the core
Where is this going? Thought I knew for a minute, but I don't anymore
And I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause
I was there when YOU SAID FOREVER & ALWAYS
YOU DIDN'T MEAN IT BABY,I DON'T THINK SO


Back up, baby, back up
Did you forget everything
Back up, baby, back up
Did you forget everything

'cause it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause I was there when you said forever and always

Oh, I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when we said forever and always

And it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause I was there when you said forever and always
You didn't mean it baby, you said forever and always... yeah





thailand旅行的其中1晚梦见了他我已经叫自己不要想到他了,就算是,他也不值得我引起自己任何的情绪我没有想他,真的没有提起他,我没有任何的心情,没有任何情绪,真的没有为什么还要让我梦见他梦见了他后悔了,来挽回我我一口就答应了,而且2个人回到去像以前一样可是之后自己静下来想,我是不是不应该答应他他做了那么多伤我的事情,我有必要再次陷进去吗...就在我犹豫的那一刻,睡醒了那天听姐妹说起了他,我也没有表现出任何在意的动静抚心自问,蔡依妏,你真的一点感觉都没有吗?大家都说他变了,就算是亲近他的朋友到此时此刻,我依然不相信,依然自欺欺人,抱着一丝希望,希望他还是以前的那个他,还是我当初会爱上的那个他看着其他分开后的朋友,男生对女生依然还会有在乎,仍然把那个女生放在自己心里某个特别的位置每当大家说起,我都很淡然地讽刺说:”放心吧他睬我都傻,他根本都不认识蔡依妏这个人…”跟他渡过的那个3年半感觉上好虚幻我认识的那个他感觉上已经去了很遥远的地方,再也回不来一直说天蝎座是不好的星座,天蝎座都是坏的其实根本不是那样….至少另一个天蝎还会在意那个她,我的天蝎座才是当我不存在的一样一切的一切都不是天蝎座的问题,是我选择了那个他是他不明白为什么还要穿着自己送他的t-shirt,不明白为什么那么担心玩paintball的颜料会弄脏那件t-shirt…这个是你所谓的对他没有任何情绪吗不明白为什么明明恨下心block了他,还要用别人的accstalk,看见他add的每个美女…ehh,你自己也不帅好吗,不要那么异想天开,癞蛤蟆想吃天鹅肉我真的很差吗我到底在生气什么为什么人家已经不喜欢你了,你就不可以放下啊?!那么傻,让他牵动着你走怎么说也深深地爱过,真的可以这样什么都忘得一干二净,厉害第一次那么希望自己有桃花运,希望自己有新的男朋友我需要1个很强很强的distraction…我要赶快谈恋爱,赶快忘了他不想过生日,不想知道他连我生日也忘了,不想经历那个他不在意,连生日快乐也不跟我说时的那个心情说了多少次要不去想,说了多少次要忘记,说了多少次要不在意到了最后,辛苦的只是你自己痛苦的也只有你自己怀念的仍然只有你自己


Friday, August 24, 2012

♥~Welcome To The Land Of Thailand~♥



Warning: it's going to be a post with tons of pictures...

Ok...The main purpose of this trip was actually to visit our relatives...


We took the train at 21/8 12am...

DAY 1   21/8   Tuesday

Forgot what time did we reach the Hat Yai train station...I think it was 11 something...

Thailand is 1 hour ahead of Malaysia...

& i found out my phone changed the time zone automatically,i didn't know it could work like that,NICE...

We all got really excited when we saw 3 shu gong,gonggong's brother, was already there,waiting for us

He brought us to the hotel we were going to stay for the next 2 days,which was Novotel Centara Hotel(This property used to be under Novotel management but now is under Centara Group...)

Waiting to check in...We booked 2 rooms,1 for mummy,bb & me,1 for AhDi & gonggong...

This hotel is right in the city centre,lots of shopping centre around & close by to many eatery stalls...

Found it very convenient for us to shop...

After settling everything,Mummy,AhDi & gonggong were following 3 shu gong to visit some relatives while i was dead sleeping in the hotel bed...

Went for a walk after dinner...You can find many food vendors,food stalls & clothes stalls at the roadside...

The prawns & the chicken drumsticks they sold were huge!!!


Sawadika!!! It's the Mcdonald at Lee Garden Plaza,which is located opposite of Centara hotel...


DAY 2    22/8   Wednesday

Had our breakfast at the hotel restaurant...

Their breakfast buffet was excellent...Best breakfast buffet ever...

They offered a wide range of food option,cuisine from various cultures & also live cooking...Love it!!!!! 

It's time to explore the place after filling up our stomach!!!

3 shu gong rented a van for us & it was spacious inside...

Hey guys...apparently i wasn't ready yet =_=

Opps...i forgot to mention that my aunty & uncle were going with us too :S

The cute little fellow sitting beside me was my cousin,Evelyn...

The first tourist spot we visited: Bodhisattva Kuan Im...


Huge Kuan Im statue...

The dragon mouth entrance...I was sitting on its tongue =_=

The old lady beside mummy was my 3 shu po & 3 shu gong was holding the camera...

There was a golden buddha statue at the top of the mountain...

You have to climb real high & walk real long to reach it...

It took us at least,is AT LEAST 10 flights of stairs,exhausted enough!!!!!

We were almost there!!! 
Little Evelyn was more energetic than me

The view up there was totally worth the climbing...Spot the Kuan Im statue i just took picture of...


We made it!!!! WooHoo!!!!

Went to the Hat Yai Ice Dome next...

It was -15 degree celcius inside...Way more chillier than the one in I-city...

The cold wind was piercing my face till i couldn't feel my nose anymore...

Nice ice sculpture...

Next stop : Songkhla...

Do i look as elegant as this mermaid??? haha...kidding alright :P

I was too lazy to describe what's so special about this mermaid...

So...............

Here you go =D




We made our way to watch the wild monkeys afterward...


The monkeys were ready to jump into the water from that jumping tower...

I didn't know that monkey can swim :S And they were not only swimming,they were actually diving!!!!

My favourite picture of the trip!!!!

I was all so excited that i touched its hand !!!!!

The old guy in dark turquoise was my 3 shu gong ^^

Lunch time!!! It's a restaurant on the lake...

In Thailand,Tomyam is a must-try!!!

We had tomyam soup for 2 days & i have to say it tasted really really good!!!!

I don't quite know how to describe the food...All that i know is good or bad =_=

I love everything spicy & i just couldn't get enough of it!!!!

On the "tu tu"...Little Evelyn likes me,she wanted to hold my hand & stick by my side all the time ^^

Don't know why i'm always favoured by kids...

& I like her too!!!! She is a super talkative little girl...

She's like the younger version of Winqi Chai =_= I'm sure you guys can get along very well =_=

Dinner with relatives...

Bb spotted me eating non-stop,hehe...

Suckling pig & bread always come together & their bread is DELICIOUS for god know what reason!!!

Couldn't stop eating!!! My aunt & mummy stole some more from the next table for me :P

At night,we all gathered in one room for supper,longan,bird nest,mango rice,etc...

Played snake & ladder with little Evelyn too...

Mummy & i ordered the massage service afterward as our whole bodies were sore from the walking & standing...

It was the 1st time me getting a massage & my massage therapist had really great strength :S 

It didn't feel like she was massaging my limbs,it felt more like my bones she was massaging...PAIN :'(

It didn't hurt much when it came to my back...Instead,it felt comfortable...
& i could hear my bones making sounds all the time...RELAXING


DAY 3   23/8   Thursday

It was the last day of our stay...

Went to their famous pasar for awhile & then checked out...

Hadn't had the chance to visit their floating market as it's only open during weekend...

All we did on that day was EAT,EAT & EAT...


Lunch time....In Hat Yai,they like to use metal cup instead of glass or plastic cup...

Hence,the ice cubes were always there no matter how long it took you to finish your food...

3 shu gong recommended us this restaurant called Thanadsri Hatyai...

The restaurant is famous for their homemade beef ball...

We went there an hour later after lunch...

Had a bowl of rice vermicelli soup & it was surprisingly appetizing!!!

Couldn't resist the yummy temptation & ordered another bowl of beef balls!!!

Thumbs up x1000000.....

Their beef balls look like fish ball... 


Byebye Hat Yai....

3 shu po even brought us their famous black glutinous rice for us to bring home...

It was really nice of her =)

Dear 3 shu gong & 3 shu po...They were so hospitable over the past few days...

Always that friendly,nice,easygoing & thoughtful...Couldn't thank them enough...

Brought a lot of mummum back home,haha...ready to get fat,chai yee voon =D  


p/s: ehh...darlings...come claim your souvenirs :P



Love,



Monday, August 20, 2012

♥~An Enjoyable Weekend~♥


Have been neglecting my blog for weeks...Its time to update :P


Had nightmares continuously for 2 days =(


Waking up frightened in the middle of the night,wrapping the blanket around me as tight as i could,trying to breathe evenly to stop the thumping of my frantic heart & knowing i won't be able to sleep well =(


It really wasn't something anyone would want to experience....


Bytheway,I did have the greatest dream ever,just few days ago :P


Haha...it was about me having Edward's baby & Edward was not there while the baby was coming out...


I witnessed the whole surgery...Seeing my stomach being cut open,but it didn't hurt...


Haha...it was a bit like the birth scene in breaking dawn part 1...


I dashed to Edward the instant he came back from hunting & told him about our baby then we exchanged a huge huge hug :P


Everything was so real,his godlike face,velvet voice,tenderness,etc...

Awww... 

Wasn't going to write it here at first,but i really wanted to remember this wonderful dream forever,so pardon me


Alright...Back to topic...Had an awesome day out with darlings on last Friday...


Desmond drove us to Jusco as he was going to meet his old friends there as well...


Told them about my dreams,the good one & the bad ones...


They all laughed like mad =_= Nice response,you guys... ><


We intended to catch a movie after loading up our stomach with mummum...


Unfortunately,the showtimes were either too early or too late...


Winnie still had school that day...By the time she arrived to join us,it would be already too late for movie...


Thus,the 4 of us went for karaoke instead...


K-box has much less songs compared to The Voice,plus 2 hours weren't enough at all...



This is what girls do when there's full-length mirror around... :P

From the left,Sherryn,yours truly,Winqi & Liching...
Look at their hair lengths then look at mine....Such a big difference

Winnie reached approximately at 3.30pm...It was the 1st time us seeing Winnie in her school uniform^^

She hadn't had anything to eat...So we girls went for late lunch...

My appetite has gone crazy lately...I'm craving for mummum all the time :S

They all were still full from our late breakfast,hence Winnie & i were the only one eating...
Had "gai si hor fun" plus 2 sandwiches yet felt like eating somemore

Desmond wanted to go home earlier as he was worried about the jam due to Hari Raya,so 5pm it was...

Haha...it's a picture that took us a lot of effort to take as we wanted to include everyone in it :P

Desmond's driving skill is awful!!! He likes to drive fast,keep changing lanes here & there,keep slamming on the brake,just like Sayket,haha...but Sayket is much much much BETTER!!!!

What an unsteady,unsafe & most of all IMPATIENT driver ><

I felt car-sick all the way home!!!! 

Darlings were happily chatting & what i could do was just listening to them as i was afraid i'd puke if i opened my mouth =_=

Last Saturday...breakfast time with old friends...Nothing much to mention about...

At night,almost 10.30pm...my phone suddenly rang while i was watching "Meteor Garden"...

Found myself confused when i saw "Jiaer(pm14)" popped up on my phone screen...

Why was JiaEr calling me at this time at night =_=

He was in Langkawi with his friends,they were drinking beer & playing truth or dare...

His friends dared him to call a girl friend of him & tell her he loves her =_=

I was like,ok...now i see...That means i was the victim!!! =_=

Haha..he told me he loves me so much & i was laughing saying thank you :S

& he said he would come along to meet me if the time is allowed...

He ended up blowing me off,going to Ipoh for dinner instead...(clenched fist) ><

Promise to treat me chocolate!!! Don't you dare forget!!! (still clenched fist)

Sunday which means today...karaoke time with darlings because we didn't get enough from K-box that day :P

There was just Sherryn,Winqi & me...The other two weren't free...

Guess how long did we sing??? 7 hours!!!! 

Winqi & i were like super hyperactive,jumping here and there,doing stupid dance moves & shouting the song out loud 

Can you believe my screaming was actually louder than the mic??? Try to imagine how crazy i went :P

Sherryn was severely disturbed by us till she couldn't continue singing anymore...
Ok...i admit we were quite annoying larr

Had a really really great time with them =D

Liching,Winnie,we'll find another time to get together again,promise^^


A few more hours later,will be having a family trip to Thailand...

Late night departure...AGAIN...
Pray that i'll be able to get some serious sleep on the train

Last but not least.....


Hehe....





Love,