♥~Taylors' Friends Rock~♥

14th of Jan in 2013 was my 1st day of degree life...

Had been worrying like hell the day before as you know how "different" does my voice sound...

Afraid that people might actually tease at me,make joke of my voice as i'd experienced things like this too many times before...

Turned out everything was almost unpredictably smooth... :o

Knew few girls who are very friendly & nice... =)

I'm generally pretty quiet around people whom i'm not really familiar with :$

Thus i didn't talk much on the 1st 2 days,merely smiled in response to what they said almost all the time... :$

But its getting better...More passionate than the 1st several days at least :$

Starting to get along with them...Not that shy already....

Haha...reflects that Ms friendly & kind Cecilia is actually cold on the surface but warm in the inside... :p

Have a hunch that we'll eventually blend in quite well :)

This whole thing about making friends kind of reminded me how i 1st met my Taylors friends,how we got along after spending 1 & a half year together,made me feel abit sentimental...

Miss PM14...Miss the laughter we once had in class...

In uni,its nearly impossible to have such a huge gang of best friends who always stick together with you as there's no fix class anymore...

You'll encounter different people in different subjects of lectures or tutorials...

More new faces when the next semester starts... 

Aww...i thought i won't miss a thing about Taylors the day i graduated but i'm hell wrong :$

I'm trying to adapt & love this place where i'll be studying for years & i'm sure i'll one day :)

Alright...get back to the subject....

25/1/13, Friday

Had my class till 5pm then went to catch the 6.20pm train to KL =)

Winqi & i both wanna go KL to meet our friends in uni & college hence we decided to go in the same day & by the same train :)

However,we went in separated way right after we reached KL Sentral,haha...

After she seeing me getting on Ket's car,waved to each other & said goodbye :)

Firstly,Ket brought me to meet JiaEr's special person for dinner...

Well,dinner for me & Ket,supper for JiaEr & his special one since it was already 9.30pm ... :S

& what can i say...JiaEr has really changed a lot,a huge lot!!! In a good way of course :D

The 1st thing that was registered in my mind when i saw them holding hand was :"OMG PM14 !!!! JiaEr is in love!!! UNBELIEVABLE!!! " haha... :p

They look so lovely together...JiaEr,bring her out to meet us more often,ok ? :p

Feel so happy for them...Stay sweet yea <3 <3 <3 <3

By the time i got back to Theng jiejie's house,she was already in bed...

I tried to talk to her but felt guilty for disturbing her dreaming :$

Guessed our girls talk would just have to wait for the next night :$


26/1/13, Saturday

Waking up seeing Theng jiejie's sleeping face was just inches beside me...

Aww...it was like back to when i studied in college...Sentimental overflow...

Ket came fetch us at 10.30pm...After dropping Theng jiejie by to work,off to Pavilion for breakfast... 

Filled up our stomach & got ourselves fully charged, a shopping spree was then on!!!

Erm...ok...i was going on a shopping spree & he was simply a pity guy whom got dragged along... 

Made our way to Timesquare where i bought nothing at all... :$

Left after 2 hours staying there wandering aimlessly,haha...

Midvalley for the next & finally we found the right place to shop =D

Saw swarm of people were in Uniqlo which reminded me of the promotion about RM49.90 for 1 jeans...

Wanted to go in but drinks were not allowed which means Ket had to carry my favorite Gong-cha taro milk tea & wait outside...

I thought i would make it quick but the fitting rooms were all fulled :S

Long long queue to the fitting room & cashier... :S

Sorry for kept him waiting so long,i felt guilty... :S  

Left Midvalley approximately at 6 something pm,hadn't even shopped enough :(

Next stop,Sunway Pyramid....

Got my hair dyed & this time i decided to go for the hair color that i've been wanting to try since the 1st time i colored my hair,red =)

& the outcome.........erm....no comments :$

Ket said red isn't not nice,just doesn't suit me that much like brown does...

Haha..what a nice comforting sentence... It's ok,i get it... :')

The red head me having chocolate cream chips at Starbucks,ss15...

Terrible eyebags became more obvious at night !!!!

On the second night of my stay at Theng jiejie's apartment,we eventually had the time to sit down & talk =D

Catching each other up on all the latest...

Her boyfriend & she both said the same thing like Ket did,red hair doesn't suit me :$

Haha...& the funniest part was that her boyfriend & Ket literally told me the same thing :" Not that red color isn't nice,just brown color suits you more..."

I purely sat in front of the mirror whole night trying to accept the fact that everyone prefer my previous hair color... :$

Guess what...the 3 of us were too excited talking & laughing that we didn't realize we were actually causing noises in the midnight,somemore with the room door opened...not until when we got complaint by her housemate who had just fallen asleep & woken up by us minutes later... :$


27/1/13, Sunday

Same routine...drove Theng jiejie to work at 10.15am then headed to our favorite hangout spot back in college time,jojo kitchen in ss15, to spend the afternoon meeting up with other Taylors' friends over brunch....

This is how striking my hair looks under the sun... :')

I love Iphone 5's front camera...Haha,kept occupying Ket's phone & played with its camera :$

Goofy face take 1....

Goofy face take 2...

Haha...pity his phone :$

LiWen's & HuiQi's absence saddened me but its ok,we'll find another day to meet up again =)

ZenZuan is more huge & muscular than the last time i saw him,haha...more grown up too :)

Miss his chipmunks voice..... :)

The 3 of us gossiped a little bit too,haha...

It made us a bad person to gossip about others but it was fun hearing them criticizing people in a true yet funny way :$

Another shopping day with my sister,LayLay...haha...i miss picking fight with him :p

The way we communicate was purely hilarious enough,haha...

I think we spent time laughing more than talking :$

Playing with this app using his Ipad & i like this picture so much even though i look sucks :$

Haha...we spent like almost an hour on this app...

He kept blaming me for taking so long but i could've done it faster if it wasn't him disturbing me throughout the process ><

Laylay & me....

Ehh....stop gawking at pretty girl with that horny smile... ><

I was standing just right next to you,show some respect please,haha... :p

& i have to mention this ,he has really slimmed down a lot!!!

No more bloated tummy to punch on :( 

Ket came drove me to KL Sentral after his drum practice...its time to go home :(

These 2 days were truly awesome for me,thanks for treating me so nice  =)

LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH !!!!!!

How i wish i can just follow my rationality instead of feeling... :')

I don't....but i can't find a reason not to....

People keep telling me the same thing but i know i don't deserve... :')

Love,

♥~My Little Tutees~♥

For the past month,I'd been spending my evening being a part time tutor in a tuition center which is called Alambestari Learning Center...

& yesterday which was Thursday,10/1 was my last day working at there... 

Don't feel like quitting as i really love what i was doing all along,teaching the kids,helping them in their homework...

But i just don't have a choice....Going to start my degree life next Monday & i've got a Grade 7 piano exam waiting ahead for me, just another few more months to prepare.... 

I don't think i can cope with my study,my piano exam & my work at the same time unless there is 36 hours in a day which is impossible... :(

So.....guess quitting was the right call to make... :(

Going to mention some of my favorite tutees here just in case i forget about them in the future  

Firstly.....

Haha... Woo Kok Choong... Standard 4...

He is the 1st student that came in the door on my 1st day of work...

My 1st impression of him was :So cute!!! Chubby,baby fat,fair skin...& he looks like a cartoon character!!! But i couldn't figure out which cartoon character it was...

There was 1 day,most of the students had gone home already,left only a few of them who hadn't finished their homework...

He was still in the class too & i was sitting in front of him,watching him doing his exercise...

An image of Popeye just suddenly flashed into my mind & i was like:" Hey..i finally know what cartoon character do you look like !!! Its Popeye!!! "

Then i started singing:" the Popeye the sailorman,bubu...the Popeye the sailorman,bubu..."

His face was a combination of shy & speechless...haha...

He said:"Jiejie,why are you so childish one...So grown up already still so childish...."

I didn't care & just continued singing the Popeye's song,haha...

Even begged him to let me take some pictures of him & he said yes which was out of my expectation... :o

Haha...adorable!!!!!!   

But then when i reached home & thought clearly...found out it wasn't Popeye that he looks like, it was the master of the pink dog in "Courage The Cowardly Dog"...

This one this one... :$    But of course my little tutee is the chubbier & cuter version :$

So start from that day,i called him Popeye instead of his real name,haha...

He found it embarrassing & not allowed i said a word to the others,so this nickname was just between the 2 of us...

Whenever i attempted to call him Popeye in front of everyone,he would get really nervous then tried to shush me...

Haha,what an evil tutor 

He did his homework quite slow one,so he was always the last one to leave...

There was 1 time,i leaned my head on the table,waiting for him to finish his work...

Out of a sudden, he hummed a lullaby to me,haha...

Then only i realized i almost fell asleep there...Luckily his singing woke me up :S

That instant was so cute & sweet... Love how he sang to me :$

A 9 years old kid sang a lullaby to a 19 years old teen,Chai Yee Voon reflect on yourself please  

He knew i was leaving & he kept nagging me to teach him more...

On Wednesday,when he was waiting for the next tuition class,we chatted & took pictures together...

Just as i stood up & was about to go home,he stopped me & asked me to go into his class later...

I wished too but it wasn't my decision to make,whether or not to go in his class :(

He began to raise his voice & even said :" You don't go home 1st please,i'll commit suicide if you go!!!"   Haha,kids....

When i opened the door & readied to step outside,i heard him shouting to another tutor :" Jiejie left already larr!!!!!! "

Plus he got scolded by the most experienced tutor those days because he just couldn't stop coming to the next table to find me,ask me questions which he didn't understand instead of sitting still in his seat & asking the tutor who was in charged of him...

I was more than willing to teach him of course but felt guilty at the same time as i was the reason that he got scolded... :(

On the left, Wong Kar Lok.... On the right, Justin Yue... Both also Standard 4... 

Haha, & Wong Kar Lok was the big fat bully that i had mentioned in my post before...

I used to dislike him & scared of him as he was indeed a rebellious & naught student...

Mr Justin too...Both of them always tend to be impolite & disrespectful to me...

It was like i was the new toy & they just simply fooled me around.... :s

I didn't give up though,i put in a lot of patience even myself was surprise that i was capable of being so tolerate & patiently enduring their behaviors... 

I think i got something in return at last even though i never dreamed or asked for one... 

I thought they would bully me till the end of my working days but it turned out they now like me a lot,how touching... :') 

Big fat bully was no longer a bully & he even cared about me...

Miracles do happen...

  

Sometimes when i was thinking whether or not to continue teaching them,he spotted me & asked why did i look so sad...

"Jiejie,you fall out love already ? Why look so sad ? You're hungry only is it ? Go buy some junk foods larr... "

Haha...i always tell them whenever i feel hungry & they already knew that i would start getting hungry at a certain time,like 5 something pm...

Now..they got a new nickname for me,they called me bitter gourd face jiejie,haha....

Means i always look upset & bitter like bitter gourd,haha... :p

Furthermore,big fat bully saw me buying snacks on Wednesday & :"Jiejie don't buy snacks,buy sandwish...Eat snack won't be full enough one,buy sandwish..."

So touching larr my dear big fat bully :'(

& actually those snacks were for later when i watched drama at home one,not for filling up my stomach :$ 

On my last day of working,before he went home,he purposely came to me & said goodbye :" Jiejie my grandpa came already,byebye..."

Love them 

Ok...next.....

This little girl whose name is Goh Shu Wei... Standard 2...

Cute isn't she.... So tiny & skinny,feel very protective over her :$

During my last week there,she asked me the same question almost everyday...

"Jiejie when are you leaving ? "   "This Thursday..."

"Why do you wanna leave ? "      "Because i have to study too,just like you..."

"So when are you coming back? During your holiday? "    

"Maybe...Maybe won't come back anymore..." with a sad tone...

"Huh...." with a sigh.....

This is her sister,Goh Shu En... Standard 4... 

A polite & hardworking girl... :)

Both of them are very obedient & always do their works quietly one...

Wish them growing up being a good girl with a nice personality & a pretty face :)

Mr Joshua Yue,Justin's younger brother... Standard 2...

This fellow is abit lazy,haha...but he did finish the exercises all the time...

He didn't talk much like his brother,a cool kid...  

& he once threw tantrum on me because he was so unwillingly doing his maths...

Then i was the one who gave him puppy dog eyes,asked him don't be grumpy & helped him to erase the mistakes that he had made as he was too lazy to even use the eraser  ==

A tickle of amused just rushed through me as i think it back...

Like i was the one who did something wrong :S

Little Eva.... Standard 3...

She used to keep long hair but then she cut them off during the holiday...

Can see that this girl is really clever...

She always finished doing the homework given within a short period of time & most of her works were correct one...

There was still other tutees that i like very much but didn't have the chance to take picture of them...

Besides,i've got some tiny leaving gifts for them before i left...

For your information,i have absolutely zero sense of art & it was the 1st time that i handmade something like this,so.....it explained the ugliness of it :$

Already tried my best with the limited time provided :$

It surprised me that my friends came & asked me to make one for them too after seeing this picture on fb....

It made me feel so nice & heart-warming because at least there's people know to appreciate my hard work despite the appearance of it :$ 

Haha...but this is specially for my V.I.P only  

Gonna miss my children (sounds wrong but i don't care :$ ) & it was my pleasure to meet some nice colleagues there : Ting Yan,Yao Siang,Suet Err (i think i spelled wrong their names ) & another guy whose name i forgot already :$

Feel guilty for him as he already knew my name the 1st few days we taught the kids together & now i can't even recall whether i forgot his name or i never knew what his name is :$

Lastly,wish me a nice starting of my degree life... =)

  

Love,

♥~Cecilia's Inner Thoughts~♥

Erm....我发现我的blog都在写一些关于家人&朋友的事情;我和家人朋友的回忆...

很少提及我自己..So...这篇diary is all for me...Just me...

决定用回我最擅长的语言来表达,因为这样会写得比较有感觉 :$

p/s : 虽然我很久没有碰华语了 :$


首先...Erm...要说我学业的事情...

兜兜转转...换了很多的决定,最后还是选择了当初我最抗拒的option : UTAR...

我自己也很惊讶为什么我到头来会做出这样的决定...

一直以来,我都是认为自己会顺妈咪的意思,跟她一起到美国去,在那里完成我的degree...

不过到了taylors读书,才发现原来我是只homebird,haha... :$

一直到毕业回来后,holiday了半年...

在家呆了那么久,感觉回那种我在kl生活遗忘了的温馨&熟悉的feeling...

不必再做什么事情都自己1个人,去哪里都自己1个,逼自己勇敢独立坚强....

曾经挣扎,曾经崩溃流泪,打给倩向他倾诉,告诉他我的迷惘....

很记得他说过的:"最重要是你自己开心,选1条你想要可是不会令你开心的路,那么那也不是真正你想要的啊..."

我不需要住在什么繁华的城市里;我不需要物质上的享受...

我想要的只是1个简简单单,快快乐乐的生活,像童话故事一样单纯...

这里是我会感到开心的地方,这里是我会感觉到简单的地方...

所以到了最后,还是选择了UTAR,虽然过程中被妈咪反对好多次...

或许大家会觉得我很蠢,为什么有更好的选择我不要...

知道住在MN的aunty们都在讨论着我这个他们所谓愚蠢的选择...

But i live for myself, not for your expectation...

So say what you wanna say, i don't freaking give a damn about it... =)

14th of Jan就开学了...有期待,也有紧张...

可是却不知道为什么there's a part of me still wish to be a Taylorian more than a Utarian...

当我拿到了utar's t-shirt的时候,心里竟然有种how i wish it was a taylor's t-shirt的莫名想法...

Whats with all these jumbled thoughts :S

Maybe i'm just being paranoid or nervous or whatever it is...

It is my choice & i should be responsible with what i have decided... =)

祝我开学愉快& erm....祝我的声音不会被取笑     p/s : 这个很重要 :(


Now...到我工作的事情了...

从3rd Dec 开始,i started my teaching life....

在1间tuition center做assistant,负责教小学生功课,from primary 1 to 6...

一开始的时候觉得教到好累好吃力,因为他们总会时不时:"姐姐...姐姐...姐姐..."

Especially for those who are just standard 1...

而比较懂事一些的,standard 4 to 6...却又很devil 地欺负我...

& I'm going to name them out,hehe... KarLok & Justin...

顶我的嘴,不听话,不合作...

那时候的我,宁愿被1年级的疲劳轰炸,也不愿去负责教这2个devils...

最可笑的是 : 被他们欺负了,心里竟然有hurt到&害怕的感觉 =_=

而且觉得自己也像小学生一样,回到家哭诉,埋怨...心里讨厌着那2个devils...

可是慢慢地,觉得自己好像渐渐知道怎么去控制他们了...

他们好像有时候会听我的话了,会开始怕我了...

当他们认真把我的话听进去时,真的有冲动想跳起来Yeah!!!  :$

就这么小小的事情也令我开心了很久很久...

身边很多朋友都告诉我说我是个很容易满足的人,开始认同了...  :$

心里不断地重复: 我控制到他们了!!! 我没有被欺负了!!!

跟那些小学生谈天相处,发现有时候我才是比较幼稚的那个 =_=

Ok...i know i act like a little girl & sometimes think like one too :$

不过被一群小朋友说我幼稚....Is it a good or bad thing ?　:$

当我在teaching 中唯一的obstacle (被karlok & justin 欺负) 都已经被排除后....

当我不再怕他们,不再讨厌他们,甚至跟他们做了好朋友后.....

It's time to quit teaching... :')

Uni life is about to start & i don't think i will have enough time for my study plus piano,nevermind teaching...

Life is cruel...我才刚和他们打成一片了,现在我却要走了 :(

从以前我很抗拒去教他们2个,到现在我希望天天都负责他们的功课.... :(

从以前他们一直欺负我,不会做的功课也不会来问我,到现在一直吵着我黏着我...

有时候我们相处得好到会觉得我们是同1个年龄层的,its like we're in 1 gang, all standard 4 :$  

而且Karlok今天对另1个assistant说了一句话,弄得我很感动...

他说:"你搞不定我们的啦,只有那个姐姐搞得定我们...." 我快要哭了 :'(

花了多少时间,多少心思....用了多少精力,多少的耐心...

我才成功地不被他们欺负,甚至被他们喜欢...

Karlok还直接告诉我:"姐姐我不舍得你哦...."  

Aiyorr...me too,有想抱他的冲动 :$

我也很不舍得你们 :'(    

克制不住心里的涟漪...好像我所有付出过的耐心都收到了回报一样...

教他们的最后1个星期,也就是这个星期,不停地有学生问我:"姐姐,你教到拜四而已?"

They are my 1st batch of students...

心里想:不知道他们全部长大了,我还认不认得他们,他们又记不记得我 :(

有时候觉得他们像我的buddies,有时候觉得像我的孩子,haha... :$

虽然只是教了他们短短的1个月,可是心里的不舍却超乎自己的想象...

想象不到到了last day,我会有什么感觉,什么reaction... :(

Its ok...我知道自己很感性,也很容易感触...

不过我一直告诉&提醒自己...Chai Yee Voon,be strong!!! NO CRYING !!!!


Now...My personal things....

星期日那天,收拾房间的同时,把所有关于他的东西都丢掉了...

自从分手到现在,从来就没有去碰过那个盒子里属于我们的东西...

因为某个朋友失恋了,说要把全部东西丢掉,我就觉得 : 好吧!反正我也还没丢,一起吧!

打开了那个曾经宝贝但是现在不具任何价值的盒子,大概翻了翻里面的东西...

电话吊饰,小纸条,bus tickets,movies tickets...

心里竟然没有任何的不舍,更加没有任何的感觉...

尝试着去回想起我们过去的回忆,可是那份甜蜜的感觉却再也找不回...

可以很放松地说...在September,我生日的那段期间,已经完完全全地把他放下了 :)

心里没有任何的犹豫,就把一切都丢进垃圾桶了...

心里没有任何的挣扎,就把我们之间所有的照片都删除了...

这一切...早就应该在半年前做了...拖到现在 :$

接下来...Is a cute conversation between a boy & a girl....

Now i still can't forget that frog that i killed... :(
Should have felt something if i really ran over it is it ?

Yaya...should have felt something was under the tyre... 
& it will shout...

Even if it shouted,wont be able to listen anything also since i was in the car...

So pain,should shout very loud....

Haha...you talked to me like talking to a kid :$ 
So pain,should shout very loud :$

I am just trying to comfort you,don't want you to feel guilty...

Let's give it a name...call it flatty...
Sounds respectful abit...Don't call it frog anymore,flatty it is :(

.......................................................

.......................................................

After an hour....

Hey...we just spent the whole night talking about flatty :$

Haha...i just can't forget what i've done to flatty...
Nevermind...i owe flatty :(

Flatty wont blame you :)


1个女生真心地因为不小心驾车辗死了1只frog而觉得非常的内疚...

普通的人会觉得那女生很傻,觉得那么小的事情为什么可以说得那么紧张...

而且也不会愿意再多讨论,觉得结束那话题就好了...

也很少人会真正明白女生心里那种内疚的折磨,只觉得她蠢,甚至觉得她很小孩...

可是那男生却愿意这样配合着她,跟她谈着那只frog,逗她笑...

就这样讨论1只小青蛙讨论了1个晚上...

就算他不明白她心里难受的感觉,至少让她把所有的不开心都吐露出来...

看到了那conversation,心里觉得warm warm的...

我很喜欢这种简简单单,很单纯的感觉....

I dont need a smart,clever,rich & handsome him...

更加不需要1段像偶像剧里很melodramatic的relationship...

My heart is simple...

就算收到多么贵重的礼物,只要送给我的不是对的人,都不会有一丝丝感动的感觉...

就算只是简简单单地收到了1份琴谱,只要替我找的人是对的人,就会觉得sweet sweet的...

1个特地去选贵重礼物然后送你的人... 1个不懂音符却帮你找琴谱的人....

了解我的话,就会知道我在意的是那份心意...

了解我的话,就会知道我完全不是1个materialistic的女生....


Its been a long time since i last confessed my internal feelings...

Now its all written out...  =)